Post by Dash Miles on Jun 11, 2015 17:35:37 GMT -8
Frustration:
Dash Miles: Being 0-2, and being knocked out and beaten at every pass by Burai is not what I thought my career in wrestling would start.
Dash Miles is sitting on the hood of his car. It is a nice night so he is shirtless and he is watching the sun set over the bay. He puts his hands on his head and he starts to sway back and forth. He spits on the ground and looks back at the camera.
Dash Miles: I have sat here and I have talked about what has happened to me in my life. People have got annoyed by it, but I have kept with it because that is what drives me to get to where I want to be but it simply has not become enough, or seemingly has not become enough y’all.
He sighs and closes his eyes and slams the hood with both of his fists. The sound of his hands meeting the metal of the car is loud. He looks at his fists after and starts to stretch them, in his mind now he knows that might have been a bad idea to do that. He opens his hands and again puts them on the back of his head.
Dash Miles: I could have walked away y’all. That door is right there for me and I can walk away and not look back and not care about what would happen. I’m frustrated by this, and I want to be better I want to be a ruthless jerk but something is holding me back and I’m not sure what it is. I’ve looked at myself in the mirror and I have wondered about it but I haven’t found it yet and I wonder myself if I ever will find it.
When I faced Silas Romero I knew what he was going to bring. He was going to bring his strength and he was going to try and knock me out. He did, when he hit me with that rolling elbow it hurt and as I hit the mat with my eyes closed and me knocked the fuck out I couldn’t think about anything. As I woke up though and looked at the lights and slowly got my ass up from that mat and pounded it with frustration I was nailed from behind by my nemesis Burai and he knocked me right back the fuck out.
He again slams the hood of the car. Again the sound was loud and again he looked at his fists realizing again that it was stupid for him to hit it. He shakes his head and looks at the camera, you can see the frustration mounting in his face as he sneers.
Dash Miles: Soon though Burai and I will be in that ring together and someone will end this. It might be him, it might be me. But as soon as I woke up from what Burai had put me through I started to realize what I have to do, and like I said that is become ruthless. But how does one become ruthless is the question that I am now saddled with. Also what I am saddled with is can I become that, can I not care what I do to people in that ring? When I look at myself in the mirror do you know what I see? I see a man full of strength and has some smarts. I haven’t been able to apply that stuff in the ring and it hurts. It hurts because I know I’m better than that, and I think to myself maybe I have been holding back because I don’t want to hurt someone. Why am I holding myself back? I’m not sure but it has to stop.
He gets off from the car with a jump as he walked over to the bay he picked up a nice flat black rock and skipped it. The sunset had tons of colors, reds, and oranges. He took a deep breath and turned on his heels and looked back at the camera. He slowly started to have a smile creep on his face as he talked again.
Dash Miles: This time at Gold Rush I get to face a veteran of this ring. A man that was trained by our World Champion Matt Ward.
Now Matt I know you have been in this ring for a long time and you are known as the Windy City Nightmare. Also Matt I know that we were supposed to face off at IOW and that match never happened but at Golden Gate Wrestling it will. We will get in that ring together and we will throw our bodies against each other seeing which one will be the first one to give. As I watch you in that ring I see a man that is big and that will use his power to get ahead. It is smart Matt, using that power that you have and I know that you have probably faced bigger men than me and I know that you have probably beaten them. But when you step in that ring against me every single ounce of frustration I have, I will put on you. I do somewhat feel bad for you because I want to get in that ring and win a match Matt. You’ve been there and done that you have been able to get your hand raised and felt the joy of victory and I haven’t been able to have that yet and it is eating at me. We both are living out our dream at being a wrestler and you have been able to do it better than me.
He spits on the ground once more and he picks up another stone and he skips that one as well. He walks to his car and he opens the door and is about to get in.
Dash Miles: Matt, I want to beat you and as I think about it I need to beat you. It seems to me Matt that to beat you I might have to hurt you. I might have to keep pushing you to that limit to get a win. As I have seen the past few shows I need to do that otherwise I will be run down in this business. That is what you have over me Matt and that is probably what you will use against me. I might be big and I might have power but this whole wrestling this is new to me. Matt this is old hat to you, and when you get in that ring you’ll look at me like some punk kid that wants to rule this business. The problem is Matt that I’m still trying to learn and it has been a hard thing for me to learn and I just can’t take it anymore.
He gets in the car and starts it up. He looks at the camera one more time.
Dash Miles: Matt, do what you do best and that is wrestle. Try to hurt me, try to knock me out because man I have been there and done that. I have learned that lesson, the next lesson I want is the one that you win and get your hand raised. Matt I’m looking at you and I know what I need to do, I need to knock you out. Burai and Silas Romero did that to me the last Gold Rush and when I woke up I vowed to myself that I’d never let that happen again. It is not a good feeling to be laying on that mat wondering what kind of train hit you and left you to die. Burai has gotten to me Matt, and I know that I will still be looking over my shoulder wondering where he will pop up. Wondering if he will cost me this match against you, and to be honest I wouldn’t put it past him.
Matt I’m sick of losing, I’m sick of trying to get people on my side by saying I have been in the gym honing my craft. It hasn’t worked thus far, and I know that I need to rethink what has been going on with me. Maybe I shouldn’t keep looking in my past and saying I want to step away from it and become a better man. You see Matt I have already become a better man by beating that addiction so in a way I have actually won something before.
He shakes his head and starts to put the car into drive.
Dash Miles: Now, I’m looking at this business thinking to myself that maybe it is about the future. Maybe it is about changing what I am fighting for.
And Matt I have started to look at that and the change that I need is maybe I need to start hurting people. Maybe I need to start breaking people down limb by limb, and spitting in their face and becoming a man that is feared. Look at me Matt I should be feared not someone that cries when he loses. But someone that has gotten knocked the fuck out and woke up at the same time. Maybe it is my time to hurt you Matt, maybe taking out a veteran like you will give me some street cred, hell I might as well try right?
He winks and laughs a little bit as he drives off as the camera fades to black.